perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

Nope, no new car yet. Still in the works though. I think it will happen soon. Hopefully. Anyways...

Ever since I started test driving cars and shopping for cars, I take in more of the details of cars than I ever did. For example, I see more 350Z's than I ever did before I rented that thing. Man, those are nice cars. I would love to get behind the wheel of one of those things again!

I was going to have movie night with Grandma, but we both cancelled. She because the D-Backs are on TV tonight, and me because my car...yeah, it's dying again. I hope it will make it to work tomorrow...kinda nervous about that, but there is nothing I can do about it at the moment.

Okay, coming out with it. I had a really rough go at it last week. Really rough. I mean, was really low, very depressed. No, I wasn't missing Warren, I hardly think about him anymore. Even though I had gone to FHE, institute, the temple, grandma's, institute again, and had some things to do last week, I still was in a very bad way. I don't think I wrote a lot last week. Gosh I don't even remember if I wrote a post at all last week.

What has changed? Well, for one I refilled my prescription. Yeah, I takes medication to keep me sane. Perhaps the reason why I was so bad off was because I was used to feeling mostly normal and all of a sudden I was feeling bad like ALL of the time.
Perhaps it was a scripture I read. You know, the funny thing is, all last week I was very consistent and diligent, reading scriptures, saying meaningful prayers, etc. Goodness, I go to Church twice a lot of weeks (once to the family ward where I have my records, and once to a singles ward of my choosing). AND I am going to Stake Choir practice now.
Perhaps it was the fact that I was given a calling. I have a purpose now. I have an identity through this calling. Yes, me, Elizabeth, the Sunbeams teacher (!!!! :) !!!!)
Perhaps I just needed a test of faith, and now I have a bit of a break.
Perhaps it was some of the insights I caught while reading something a member of the Church wrote about recovering from depression and what it is really about. I have it, it is in a conspicuous spot, but I never would pick it up. But I ALWAYS felt like I needed to pick it up and read it, that there were things in that book that I needed to know. Well, dang it, I am going to read the thing!

Alright, going to prepare a bit for my sunbeams thing Sunday. :) Eek, I am so excited about this calling!